Well, since 2014 is about no excuses all I can do is say, I put my emotions and feelings above my commitment to this blog and I apologize to myself and you for that.
Heres, what happened, because you deserve to know. I came home and was feeling very tired and then got into a argument with my wife.
I worked today and took my dad with me, he has dementia, and drove around and showed houses for at least 6 hours! Stressed out about money, even though I try not to let money issues get to me…sometimes it just does (that's my next blog). So, when I got home…I wanted to know what was for dinner and my wife said we were having salad! SALAD, yes salad.
We all know that when you have a stressful day, a comforting meal is all you want…NOT A SALAD!
Now keep in mind, I recently told my wife, that I needed her support in this life change of eating properly..but of course, I was not thinking about that…I was just thinking I want a hot meal!! admit….Obviously, I was not thinking that. So, I started telling her to cook me sweet potatoes and fish…she got upset and said look, we are having freaking salad tonight. We screamed at each other a couple times and I was so exhausted I took my salad and went upstairs to bed!
When I got upstairs I ate the salad…yes, I was all mad and bitter…I was eating that salad like I was a victim and someone just did something horrible to me!! Guess what…I never told my wife this…the salad was actually very good. go figure!
I laid in the bed refusing to move and before long, my wife came in the room with a plate of food. YES, she actually cooked me a meal of fish and sweet potatoes. Although I appreciated her doing it, I didn't say thank you, I just told her to take it and I refused to eat it.
Long story short and what I learned is, I should have been ok with eating the damn salad from the start because I should never be so consumed with food that it causes an argument with my wife. I need to eat to live not live to eat right!!! I also should be more observant to my wife and her emotions. Come to find out she had a really tough day with our 1 year old little Bliss and had been on her feet for hours…cleaning, teaching, washing and comforting etc. It was all about me.
Guess, what me not drinking wine tonight and last night gave me a moment to have a clear mind to think about all of this.
TODAYS FOOD
BREAKFAST - egg whites & yogurt
LUNCH - turkey meat with egg whites
DINNER - 1/2 piece fish, 2 shrimp and squash
Great food day….
oh and I forgot to tell you! My back is not hurting as bad!!! My stomach is starting to go down I think…but I can walk and bend a little better.
this is BLISS MY beautiful daughter!
Day 5
Today was a great day! I stayed home most of the day…well…not on purpose. My basement flooded!!
NO MORE STRESS! We were already on a budget and a plumber was NOT in our budget…but, like the strong women we are we dealt with it and found a way to take care of it.
I just happened to go downstairs to print some papers for my appt today and stepped into a huge puddle of water. NOT GOOD!
Long story short, I did not use food to deal with it…I don't think I even thought about eating bad today at all.
Well the lack of extra money really does help with eating whats in the house. Anyway, I hope that you can relate to this, let me know if you are on this same journey with me.
I am a little tired….
see ya tomorrow
We all know that when you have a stressful day, a comforting meal is all you want…NOT A SALAD!
Now keep in mind, I recently told my wife, that I needed her support in this life change of eating properly..but of course, I was not thinking about that…I was just thinking I want a hot meal!! admit….Obviously, I was not thinking that. So, I started telling her to cook me sweet potatoes and fish…she got upset and said look, we are having freaking salad tonight. We screamed at each other a couple times and I was so exhausted I took my salad and went upstairs to bed!
When I got upstairs I ate the salad…yes, I was all mad and bitter…I was eating that salad like I was a victim and someone just did something horrible to me!! Guess what…I never told my wife this…the salad was actually very good. go figure!
I laid in the bed refusing to move and before long, my wife came in the room with a plate of food. YES, she actually cooked me a meal of fish and sweet potatoes. Although I appreciated her doing it, I didn't say thank you, I just told her to take it and I refused to eat it.
Long story short and what I learned is, I should have been ok with eating the damn salad from the start because I should never be so consumed with food that it causes an argument with my wife. I need to eat to live not live to eat right!!! I also should be more observant to my wife and her emotions. Come to find out she had a really tough day with our 1 year old little Bliss and had been on her feet for hours…cleaning, teaching, washing and comforting etc. It was all about me.
Guess, what me not drinking wine tonight and last night gave me a moment to have a clear mind to think about all of this.
TODAYS FOOD
BREAKFAST - egg whites & yogurt
LUNCH - turkey meat with egg whites
DINNER - 1/2 piece fish, 2 shrimp and squash
Great food day….oh and I forgot to tell you! My back is not hurting as bad!!! My stomach is starting to go down I think…but I can walk and bend a little better.
this is BLISS MY beautiful daughter!
Day 5
Today was a great day! I stayed home most of the day…well…not on purpose. My basement flooded!!
NO MORE STRESS! We were already on a budget and a plumber was NOT in our budget…but, like the strong women we are we dealt with it and found a way to take care of it.
I just happened to go downstairs to print some papers for my appt today and stepped into a huge puddle of water. NOT GOOD!
Long story short, I did not use food to deal with it…I don't think I even thought about eating bad today at all.
Well the lack of extra money really does help with eating whats in the house. Anyway, I hope that you can relate to this, let me know if you are on this same journey with me.
I am a little tired….
see ya tomorrow
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