Hello Everyone! I had a GREAT time on our cruise to the Bahamas and Fl! We ate, drank, danced, partied, had some romance and were as happy as we could be but now Its back to reality.
I am a little disappointed in myself because I actually made the decision to not diet or exercise on the cruise…well, I did do one thing good…i did NOT eat dessert 99% of the time..and anyone ever been on a cruise knows how hard that was!
The cruise was 7 days and it was very hard to come back today. I did notice several morbidly obese people on the cruise that had to use wheel chairs and walkers and it just made me not want to eat too much. I have not weighed myself because I know that I probably gained weight…yes that is the honest truth! But one thing I have learned over the years is you can't beat your self up over spilled milk, you just have to do better! sooooo
I joined a new gym today called fitness motivators…I took two classes today…insanity and step…I ALMOST DIED! YES BUT I DID IT.
Not to toot my own horn but I was super dizzy from being on the ship for 7 days plus, this morning I went to the doctors and found out i had bronchitis! I still did two classes…so I am back on the wagon!
My eating was weird because I craved part sugar/part salt….not sure if was because I was ill or just back from eating 3 times a day everyday and was confused lol!
Breakfast
1 Orange
Lunch
Several Corn tostios with harbanaro salsa
cereal with sugar and milk
left over shrimp friend rice (half a cup)
Dinner
chicken noodle soup
I will work out tomorrow and eat better!
good nite all
Monday, January 20, 2014
Friday, January 10, 2014
GREAT NEWS
I went to weight watchers yesterday…and after lots and lots of drama, THEY TOLD ME I LOST 5.7 POUNDS WITH THE LAST WEEK! CAN I JUST SAY HOOORAH!!
I was so happy to hear that news….it put me right at 200 pounds!
Why is that when you lose weight you get comfortable? So yesterday was a good eating day…I ate within my points…but today…ummm let me just say STRESSFUL!
I had a super stressful meeting. So one of the skinny guys came in with a freaking dozen donuts….I ate breakfast just in case so I was kewl ya know. Well the meeting went fine and then we got into a heated discussion about conversion, performance blah blah. I was sitting there smelling donuts, bitting my tounge, but more smelling donuts! I had been there for at least 1 hour, had had not even eaten a daym donut but I was freaking trapped!! Soooooo, i fucking ate the apple middle donut..my favorite. Buttt! I was not happy when I ate it. But, bottom-line I ate it. I just could not control myself. I dint know why????
Anyway, next I had to meet this client at KFC..YES SHE WANTED TO MEET AT KFC!! My old favorite. And, then at that, it was lunch time. Sooooo….I got the grilled chicken with string beans. At least I made a good choice. But i know KFC is not what I should be eating. Based on weight watchers I only ate 9 points. Oh I forgot to tell you yesterday, I went out with my dad to applebees and got the weight watchers shrimp and rice!
Eating out has always been my downfall, but I didn't always get the best healthy choices.
I need to just carry food with me bottom line.
No other food was eaten today…just red wine…I MISS MY WIFE..COME HOME BABY!
LOOKING FORWARD TO OUR VACATION ON SUNDAY.
urrrhghhhh why can't this be easier!
I have been doing a lot of meditation and thinking and will share that soon!
ttyl
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
Day 7 & 8
Today is NOT a good day.
Yesterday from what I can remember was a good food day. As I write this, I honestly cannot remember much of yesterday accept, I ate really good but added white rice in my dinner.
It was the BEST day on TV….being MaryJane and The Haves and The Haves Nots came one. They are both my favorite shows and I have been literally waiting months for them to come back on.
Everything was all set for 9pm…I had my wine and I made curry chicken with rice. Now, I am not exactly proud of drinking an entire bottle of wine but it was fun!
I made the choice to drink wine and eat rice with my chicken because I told myself this year I was going to do everything in moderation. Not cut everything I love out because I always end of resenting the diet and eat more when I off of it and gain a tremendous amount of weight!
I was very proud of myself for not getting seconds like I normally do. So one serving was a new concept…when it comes to my favorite foods.
I weighed myself this morning and it said 200.6…which means I lost a little over 5 pounds this week!!1 I should be jumping up in down but I am a little scared because I have been eating the rice today as well. I ate only one portion per meal but at it for lunch and dinner today and dinner yesterday. You hear such horrible things about eating rice but on weight watchers they teach you that you can eat your favorite foods in moderation.
When I said Today was not a good day…I mean emotionally i just felt down. I mean, on paper I had nothing to be upset about but I just felt really sad and shed tears for something I cannot put into words. Wait, could rice trigger such an emotion? I don't know. My wife asked me what was wrong and I just could not even explain?!? Have you ever felt that way?
I am soooo looking forward to my cruise that leaves on Sunday….secretly I have been fretting packing because I have no idea what will fit me…I hope I don't have to wear the same thing every day…keep your fingers crossed..
FOOD TODAY
Breakfast 2 Tablespoons of egg whites
Lunch 2 curry chicken wings with 1 cup of rice
Dinner 1 curry chicken wing with 1 cup of rice
I Jello Choc Pudding
1 Cherry Jello
See ya tomorrow
Yesterday from what I can remember was a good food day. As I write this, I honestly cannot remember much of yesterday accept, I ate really good but added white rice in my dinner.
It was the BEST day on TV….being MaryJane and The Haves and The Haves Nots came one. They are both my favorite shows and I have been literally waiting months for them to come back on.
Everything was all set for 9pm…I had my wine and I made curry chicken with rice. Now, I am not exactly proud of drinking an entire bottle of wine but it was fun!
I made the choice to drink wine and eat rice with my chicken because I told myself this year I was going to do everything in moderation. Not cut everything I love out because I always end of resenting the diet and eat more when I off of it and gain a tremendous amount of weight!
I was very proud of myself for not getting seconds like I normally do. So one serving was a new concept…when it comes to my favorite foods.
I weighed myself this morning and it said 200.6…which means I lost a little over 5 pounds this week!!1 I should be jumping up in down but I am a little scared because I have been eating the rice today as well. I ate only one portion per meal but at it for lunch and dinner today and dinner yesterday. You hear such horrible things about eating rice but on weight watchers they teach you that you can eat your favorite foods in moderation.
When I said Today was not a good day…I mean emotionally i just felt down. I mean, on paper I had nothing to be upset about but I just felt really sad and shed tears for something I cannot put into words. Wait, could rice trigger such an emotion? I don't know. My wife asked me what was wrong and I just could not even explain?!? Have you ever felt that way?
I am soooo looking forward to my cruise that leaves on Sunday….secretly I have been fretting packing because I have no idea what will fit me…I hope I don't have to wear the same thing every day…keep your fingers crossed..
FOOD TODAY
Breakfast 2 Tablespoons of egg whites
Lunch 2 curry chicken wings with 1 cup of rice
Dinner 1 curry chicken wing with 1 cup of rice
I Jello Choc Pudding
1 Cherry Jello
See ya tomorrow
Monday, January 6, 2014
Day 6
Things are getting really weird right now.
Today I totally didn't care about food too much…well not really lol.
For breakfast I let my wife sleep in and got up with Bliss and cooked eggs with cheese! I started making my follow up calls and didn't think about food until lunch time.
Well, during that time frame there was so much other stuff going on in my house….the insurance company was here, the waterproofing contractors were here tearing my basement apart! So I guess there was not time to think about food.
For lunch my wife made me shrimp and asparagus…which was only 5 points on weight watchers.
For dinner I am having a glass of wine and chocolate jello pudding (less than 100 cals)!
I even stopped at the grocery store to get my sister some coke..and didn't even think twice about stealing one…lol. Coke and Mountain Dew has been my weakness….so that is actually a big moment for me
I don't feel hungry and don't even care about food or this wine! very weird food day for me.
My sister got me a coat today which was a size 14, which is my fat size…still was a little snug…got work to do but headed in the right direction. But, I did have a great time dancing with my nephew and niece today…after about 3 minutes, I was out of breath and had to stop! This is the exact reason I need lose this weight…not just about looks but it's important to be able to live a full healthy life!
Look Y'all We can do this! I wonder how much weight I have loss. My stomach is getting much smaller.
Today I totally didn't care about food too much…well not really lol.
For breakfast I let my wife sleep in and got up with Bliss and cooked eggs with cheese! I started making my follow up calls and didn't think about food until lunch time.
Well, during that time frame there was so much other stuff going on in my house….the insurance company was here, the waterproofing contractors were here tearing my basement apart! So I guess there was not time to think about food.
For lunch my wife made me shrimp and asparagus…which was only 5 points on weight watchers.
For dinner I am having a glass of wine and chocolate jello pudding (less than 100 cals)!
I even stopped at the grocery store to get my sister some coke..and didn't even think twice about stealing one…lol. Coke and Mountain Dew has been my weakness….so that is actually a big moment for me
I don't feel hungry and don't even care about food or this wine! very weird food day for me.
My sister got me a coat today which was a size 14, which is my fat size…still was a little snug…got work to do but headed in the right direction. But, I did have a great time dancing with my nephew and niece today…after about 3 minutes, I was out of breath and had to stop! This is the exact reason I need lose this weight…not just about looks but it's important to be able to live a full healthy life!
Look Y'all We can do this! I wonder how much weight I have loss. My stomach is getting much smaller.
Sunday, January 5, 2014
Day 4 & 5
I know what you are thinking….YES, I am posting day 4 and 5 together!
Well, since 2014 is about no excuses all I can do is say, I put my emotions and feelings above my commitment to this blog and I apologize to myself and you for that.
Heres, what happened, because you deserve to know. I came home and was feeling very tired and then got into a argument with my wife.
I worked today and took my dad with me, he has dementia, and drove around and showed houses for at least 6 hours! Stressed out about money, even though I try not to let money issues get to me…sometimes it just does (that's my next blog). So, when I got home…I wanted to know what was for dinner and my wife said we were having salad! SALAD, yes salad.
We all know that when you have a stressful day, a comforting meal is all you want…NOT A SALAD!
Now keep in mind, I recently told my wife, that I needed her support in this life change of eating properly..but of course, I was not thinking about that…I was just thinking I want a hot meal!! admit….Obviously, I was not thinking that. So, I started telling her to cook me sweet potatoes and fish…she got upset and said look, we are having freaking salad tonight. We screamed at each other a couple times and I was so exhausted I took my salad and went upstairs to bed!
When I got upstairs I ate the salad…yes, I was all mad and bitter…I was eating that salad like I was a victim and someone just did something horrible to me!! Guess what…I never told my wife this…the salad was actually very good. go figure!
I laid in the bed refusing to move and before long, my wife came in the room with a plate of food. YES, she actually cooked me a meal of fish and sweet potatoes. Although I appreciated her doing it, I didn't say thank you, I just told her to take it and I refused to eat it.
Long story short and what I learned is, I should have been ok with eating the damn salad from the start because I should never be so consumed with food that it causes an argument with my wife. I need to eat to live not live to eat right!!! I also should be more observant to my wife and her emotions. Come to find out she had a really tough day with our 1 year old little Bliss and had been on her feet for hours…cleaning, teaching, washing and comforting etc. It was all about me.
Guess, what me not drinking wine tonight and last night gave me a moment to have a clear mind to think about all of this.
TODAYS FOOD
BREAKFAST - egg whites & yogurt
LUNCH - turkey meat with egg whites
DINNER - 1/2 piece fish, 2 shrimp and squash
Great food day….
oh and I forgot to tell you! My back is not hurting as bad!!! My stomach is starting to go down I think…but I can walk and bend a little better.
this is BLISS MY beautiful daughter!
Day 5
Today was a great day! I stayed home most of the day…well…not on purpose. My basement flooded!!
NO MORE STRESS! We were already on a budget and a plumber was NOT in our budget…but, like the strong women we are we dealt with it and found a way to take care of it.
I just happened to go downstairs to print some papers for my appt today and stepped into a huge puddle of water. NOT GOOD!
Long story short, I did not use food to deal with it…I don't think I even thought about eating bad today at all.
Well the lack of extra money really does help with eating whats in the house. Anyway, I hope that you can relate to this, let me know if you are on this same journey with me.
I am a little tired….
see ya tomorrow
We all know that when you have a stressful day, a comforting meal is all you want…NOT A SALAD!
Now keep in mind, I recently told my wife, that I needed her support in this life change of eating properly..but of course, I was not thinking about that…I was just thinking I want a hot meal!! admit….Obviously, I was not thinking that. So, I started telling her to cook me sweet potatoes and fish…she got upset and said look, we are having freaking salad tonight. We screamed at each other a couple times and I was so exhausted I took my salad and went upstairs to bed!
When I got upstairs I ate the salad…yes, I was all mad and bitter…I was eating that salad like I was a victim and someone just did something horrible to me!! Guess what…I never told my wife this…the salad was actually very good. go figure!
I laid in the bed refusing to move and before long, my wife came in the room with a plate of food. YES, she actually cooked me a meal of fish and sweet potatoes. Although I appreciated her doing it, I didn't say thank you, I just told her to take it and I refused to eat it.
Long story short and what I learned is, I should have been ok with eating the damn salad from the start because I should never be so consumed with food that it causes an argument with my wife. I need to eat to live not live to eat right!!! I also should be more observant to my wife and her emotions. Come to find out she had a really tough day with our 1 year old little Bliss and had been on her feet for hours…cleaning, teaching, washing and comforting etc. It was all about me.
Guess, what me not drinking wine tonight and last night gave me a moment to have a clear mind to think about all of this.
TODAYS FOOD
BREAKFAST - egg whites & yogurt
LUNCH - turkey meat with egg whites
DINNER - 1/2 piece fish, 2 shrimp and squash
Great food day….oh and I forgot to tell you! My back is not hurting as bad!!! My stomach is starting to go down I think…but I can walk and bend a little better.
this is BLISS MY beautiful daughter!
Day 5
Today was a great day! I stayed home most of the day…well…not on purpose. My basement flooded!!
NO MORE STRESS! We were already on a budget and a plumber was NOT in our budget…but, like the strong women we are we dealt with it and found a way to take care of it.
I just happened to go downstairs to print some papers for my appt today and stepped into a huge puddle of water. NOT GOOD!
Long story short, I did not use food to deal with it…I don't think I even thought about eating bad today at all.
Well the lack of extra money really does help with eating whats in the house. Anyway, I hope that you can relate to this, let me know if you are on this same journey with me.
I am a little tired….
see ya tomorrow
Friday, January 3, 2014
Day 3
Today I didn't think of food much. I guess I was too busy being in pain from all this weight!!! My back hurts so bad from my stomach pretruding so much!
I was downstairs in my basement and noticed an old picture of myself on a cruise about 9 years ago….I think I weighed 145….ironically I am going on a cruise next week and weigh 60 pounds more….CRAZY. Well, that is what this blog is all about, me taking control and getting my sexy, healthy body back!
Today was very busy so I ran out the house so fast I barely ate the egg white and cheese my wife made me…I took two bites….I think I like real eggs more. But with my high cholesterol I MUST be careful with eggs.
Food Today
BREAKFAST - egg whites and an apple
LUNCH - cream of mushroom soup
DINNER - salad with shrimp, eggs, onions, cucumbers, jalepenos and yes Ranch Dressing!
Oh yeah one confession, I drank a bottle of wine….YES AN ENTIRE BOTTLE of MALBEC.
I was getting stressed while I was online paying my bills…it was late and I didn't plan on drinking because of course I am watching my calories.
Sitting back today, thinking about my week and talking to my sister, Melinda I realize I was drinking to take away the feeling I was having. I felt like I didn't have a way out of the money situation and that bottle of wine took me out of it….It made me feel good, I didn't have to deal with the fact I had to figure how to pay all of my bills!
Now…I need to learn how to deal with that without drinking or eating…any suggestions?
My wife is here drinking champagne, I am trying to resist….I will let you know tomorrow how that goes….wish me luck.
I was downstairs in my basement and noticed an old picture of myself on a cruise about 9 years ago….I think I weighed 145….ironically I am going on a cruise next week and weigh 60 pounds more….CRAZY. Well, that is what this blog is all about, me taking control and getting my sexy, healthy body back!
Today was very busy so I ran out the house so fast I barely ate the egg white and cheese my wife made me…I took two bites….I think I like real eggs more. But with my high cholesterol I MUST be careful with eggs.
Food Today
BREAKFAST - egg whites and an apple
LUNCH - cream of mushroom soup
DINNER - salad with shrimp, eggs, onions, cucumbers, jalepenos and yes Ranch Dressing!
I was getting stressed while I was online paying my bills…it was late and I didn't plan on drinking because of course I am watching my calories.
Sitting back today, thinking about my week and talking to my sister, Melinda I realize I was drinking to take away the feeling I was having. I felt like I didn't have a way out of the money situation and that bottle of wine took me out of it….It made me feel good, I didn't have to deal with the fact I had to figure how to pay all of my bills!
Now…I need to learn how to deal with that without drinking or eating…any suggestions?
My wife is here drinking champagne, I am trying to resist….I will let you know tomorrow how that goes….wish me luck.
Thursday, January 2, 2014
Day 2
Today I joined weight watchers and my weight was 206. I have to say I was a little disappointed because I weighed myself and it said 204. I know, I know it's only a 2 pound difference, but when you weight over 200 pounds, 2 pounds are a big deal!
Now it's on paper, Im technically 206 pounds!! Oh My GOODNESS!! I was embarrassed but as I held my head up, i noticed other woman there that were going through the same thing. So, next time you see someone who may be struggling with the same thing you are…that light and support you can offer can really make a big difference in their day! Thank you ladies for the support today www.weightwatchers.com.
I planned on working out today….and my plan was to walk around the block at least 2 times….well it was raining and cold! So, I said Zumba for sure, well I worked too long and didn't want to leave my daughter and wife so I said well Yvonne, you have to do something so I got on the elliptical.
I turned on my music and went as hard as I could….after 15 minutes I was exhausted. I am just learning to take it one day at a day. I did very good with my food today.
Learning to not be so hard on myself since this is a life change and NOT A DIET!
My Food Today
BREAKFAST - hand full of cherries and an apple
SNACK - apple
LUNCH - black eye peas with pork
DINNER - fish & broccoli
At least I didn't eat KFC with a COKE today! Let's celebrate our daily victories.
Now it's on paper, Im technically 206 pounds!! Oh My GOODNESS!! I was embarrassed but as I held my head up, i noticed other woman there that were going through the same thing. So, next time you see someone who may be struggling with the same thing you are…that light and support you can offer can really make a big difference in their day! Thank you ladies for the support today www.weightwatchers.com.
I planned on working out today….and my plan was to walk around the block at least 2 times….well it was raining and cold! So, I said Zumba for sure, well I worked too long and didn't want to leave my daughter and wife so I said well Yvonne, you have to do something so I got on the elliptical.
I turned on my music and went as hard as I could….after 15 minutes I was exhausted. I am just learning to take it one day at a day. I did very good with my food today.
Learning to not be so hard on myself since this is a life change and NOT A DIET!
My Food Today
BREAKFAST - hand full of cherries and an apple
SNACK - apple
LUNCH - black eye peas with pork
DINNER - fish & broccoli
At least I didn't eat KFC with a COKE today! Let's celebrate our daily victories.
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Day 1
Today is the first day of 2014 and like most people I have set big goals surrounding my weight, diet and exercise. One being that I had to walk 4 times around my block if I didn't fit any other type of exercise in….well, I only made it around 1 time because my body was in so much pain. I can admit that I am NOT comfortable in this body.
I cannot believe that I have gotten so out of shape, that I can only walk around the block 1 time. It made me feel old and fat! This has to change immediately!
For those who don't know me…being overweight has been an issue that I have had from the time I hit adulthood. I have been able to keep it under control until I hit 35…well I am 39 now and have never weighed this much. I use to teach aerobics and ab classes in my early 20s so being this size is very much new to me and I can't stand it. I am taking it on as a challenge now, I KNOW I CAN BEAT THIS!
So far today I have eaten
BREAKFAST - 1 egg, 1 spicy black bean burger w/cheese and onions
LUNCH - collard greens with a turkey neck bone
DINNER - Black eye peas with pork neck bone
SNACK - A few grapes and an apple
2 bottles of water
This time around things will be different!
Today I weighed in at 206 pounds!
MY ONLY GOAL IS TO CHANGE MYSELF AND THE WAY THAT I THINK…THEN HELP OTHER WOMEN IN MY SAME SITUATION!
See ya on the other side…GOAL 145 by my 40th birthday, November 1st 2014
I cannot believe that I have gotten so out of shape, that I can only walk around the block 1 time. It made me feel old and fat! This has to change immediately!
For those who don't know me…being overweight has been an issue that I have had from the time I hit adulthood. I have been able to keep it under control until I hit 35…well I am 39 now and have never weighed this much. I use to teach aerobics and ab classes in my early 20s so being this size is very much new to me and I can't stand it. I am taking it on as a challenge now, I KNOW I CAN BEAT THIS!
So far today I have eaten
BREAKFAST - 1 egg, 1 spicy black bean burger w/cheese and onions
LUNCH - collard greens with a turkey neck bone
DINNER - Black eye peas with pork neck bone
SNACK - A few grapes and an apple
2 bottles of water
This time around things will be different!
Today I weighed in at 206 pounds!
MY ONLY GOAL IS TO CHANGE MYSELF AND THE WAY THAT I THINK…THEN HELP OTHER WOMEN IN MY SAME SITUATION!
See ya on the other side…GOAL 145 by my 40th birthday, November 1st 2014
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